Well if you have not read my fellow bloggers blog then get off this one and go and read it. It is inspiring and emotional and awesome all at once. I have not had the pleasure of meeting Kim yet but I tell you what when I do there will be a massive Bretty Hug coming her way. Reading that gives you the will to go on when times are tough. Being a fellow parent of 4 I can see what she is going through and I see it every day with my wonderful wife. You ladies need a medal for what you do and how you handle yourselves.
So in a nutshell Kim it is a pleasure to be blogging with you and look forward to meeting you and your family when we are all skinny again!!!
So really how do we follow something like that. I have the answer I can write the same crap I write each day with a bit of Bretty humour (funny to me but not many others) or I can get all emotional on your arses. So I thought about it an well as I am changing not only the size of myself I am also changing who I am I would tell you a little story.
My Story -
It all started just before Christmas when I decided along with my lovely wife that it would be good to have some time off work and turn off the mobile phone and just spend some time with the family. As a lot of you are aware I work on average about 15 hours a day trying to make the best living that I can for my family and to be honest I try to do as little as possible but in reality I work my nuts off. Also I think I have a bit of ADD and cannot sit still for more than 5 minutes without thinking about business, doing business or talk to someone who one day we may do business with. So to stop for me is very very difficult.
So we decide that I am going to take 10 days off work and not do anything at all that involves working. Day 1 - I go and get my head shaved balled as I do each year to start the new year fresh, then go and start my holiday at home. After about an hour the hands start shaking that the mobile is not on and that I may miss something. BUT I got through that I got through it and actually sat down with my kids and played games and had fun for more than 5 minutes. Don’t get me wrong I love playing with my kids but 5 minute intervals are usually me done and what is next. I sat there for a long period of time and then went swimming in the pool with them and we were having a ball. Sim was so excited that I was finally relaxing she started to take lots of photos of us all in the pool and we were having a ball.
So after an awesome day with my wife and kids and feeling a little bit relaxed we put the kids to bed and then sat down and had a look at the photos on the computer form the day’s events. I looked at them and did not see any of me. I did see a piccy of a morbidly obese bald man in a tight blue rash vest and thought HOLY CRAP!!! What happened to the young fit bloke who loved sport, playing and watching and loved to spend time with mates and enjoy life. Where did this massive bald bloke with a seriously large gut and looking shocking come from. This hit me pretty hard and after Sim went to bed I sat up and had a good think about how this has to change or I will not be around for long to have these great days with my kids. I will not be able to play footy with the boys, watch the girls play sport or even be around to support Sim.
Well bloody hell I am not sure if anyone has had this realisation but it hits hard. It hits like a bloody truck. I sat on the lounge, Bacardi in hand and started to cry. I let go completely it was nearly the initial floods in QLD coming out of my head. I finally got to thinking about everything that has been my life for the past 5 years. How we made lots of money and lost lots of money, how we made some shocking business decisions how we got screwed over by everyone who we gave the opportunity to. I then thought about Donnie (my old man) and I came to the realisation that I have never got over his death. So I did something for the first time in years I actually thought about the old man and what happened and I actually dealt with it. It has taken 6 years to work out what was eating me up inside. Why I had been such a bastard to not only my friends and family but especially my wonderful wife. So what did I do I actually pulled out the laptop and started to Blog. I wrote and wrote and got it all out.
Well bloody hell at the end of getting it all out I felt better. The tears dried up. I woke up Sim and said you need to read this. She read it and the comments back were amazing. “I have been telling you this for years!! Yes you have been a prick, I nearly left you and you have not even been here for the kids. But this is amazing that you have actually dealt with it. Prove to me you are back to the man I fell in love with” so there you have it I actually listened to my wife. I actually heard what she was saying For the first time in a very very long time I WAS BACK!!!!
So since then I have been a different man. I am still a fat bastard (working on that one) but I am the old Brett again. My wife thinks I am funny (not really but we laugh and laugh together for the first time in years) I am spending time with the kids and enjoying life again. This rocks.
Now to get over the final issue of the fat balled bloke in the pool. Well the hair is growing back and now this competition has given me the extra incentive to lose the beef. I am rocking and rolling this week and have not strayed. I am following a calorie controlled change in my eating habits that will enable me to get to my Goal weight prior to 1/5/2011. I love the fact that I can now be honest with myself and everyone about myself.
To those who over the past 6 years I have either been a prick to, not kept in contact with, and in effect not just been Brett then I apologise. To those that have known about my issues and supported me through them then You know you Rock and I love you all. To my wonderful Wife Sim you are the best and thanks for hanging about I will make it worth it I promise (I really am funny just ask me I will tell you).
So I have come to the realisation as Kim said in her blog is that the head needs to get sorted prior to the gut. Fix one and you will fix the other. My head is fixed so bye bye guts!!
So enough about the mushy stuff. Here is todays poem.
There was a bloke named Brett
He lost 27.5kg’s in 89 days
Smashed up the competition and won the cash
I rock!!!
BIG LUV
Brettmeister
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